Call Me

Do you ever feel like you are going to wake up one morning and find that the past several years of your life were all a dream?

I'm not sure why this has been happening to me, perhaps watching a lot of Lost, but I can't shake the feeling that something isn't.. right. Its not real.

I don't quite know where I go from here. I just lay awake at night and think about the past few years and whats in store for the near future. Maybe this is just a mid-journey crisis? Of course I don't want to wish away the remainder of my undergraduate years, and of course I'm terrified about life after college (money/career-wise anyhow), but I really just want to move forward. I'm ready for a new challenge.

Its not that I'm "done" with these years; I think at the moment I am just confident that they will roll along fairly uneventfully, so I am eager to see what lies beyond them.


Will I really move away from my beloved mid-west? Will I finally get to see my boyfriend more than once every month or three? Will I get a puppy? Will I find a job I love? Will the documentation of my students loans disappear in a freak misfiling leaving me debt free in my twenties?


I don't know for sure, but I can't wait to find out.