It Takes One to Know One

Lately, I have been wanting new things. Not sometimes, but ALL THE TIME.

I, of course, can "control" myself, but apparently only to a certain point. Despite the fact that I just sent the rent check in, and will have to load up on this semesters books by the end of the month, I want new things and am constantly attempting to persuade myself that its okay.. because.. you know, I deserve it.

For example, last week, I bought a new purse. Its not even like I walked into a store, fell in love with it, and couldn't walk out of the store without it. I saw it in a photo for a giveaway, entered the contest, but then decided that I wouldn't win, but still needed it (yes, needed) and ordered it from an online boutique. Say what? Yeah, I just.. did.

Today I had nothing to do. Nothing planned whatsoever. While I did manage to keep myself fairly busy, I also had enough free time to rack up a cart full of shoes and negligees on Target.com.

Sure, I "online shop" all the time, throwing things into my "cart" and then closing out the browser before things get to serious. But for some reason lately.. I can't click the close button, and instead hit "checkout."


Earlier this week, I even put a dress into my "cart" that I wish to be married in someday. I am 20 years old, and, while I am in a very serious relationship, I am not engaged. Yet, I clicked "checkout" and nearly bought the damn thing. No, it wasn't expensive, but still, I certainly do NOT need a wedding dress. No ma'am. Not now. Not yet.

What I'm saying is:

Dear School,
Could you please start soon before summer swallows my life savings and turns it into a pile of ballet flats, cheap accessories, and ill-fitting tube dresses. I would really appreciate it.
Thanks in advance,
Sam